Covered

I wanted to take some time and write about how this “Covered” series came about. It was made with magnolia leaves, acrylic paint, paper, and pine cones. Some were mounted on wood and some mounted in picture frames. They were a 3-d representation of some of my consistent themes of shame being covered in honor.

One day, I was sitting outside on my back porch with my daughters and my oldest handed me one of about a million dead Magnolia tree leaves that were on the ground. I noticed how sturdy the leaves were even though they were dead, and decided to paint on it and see what happened…then this developed from there: 

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A few concepts that I think are significant to this series: 

Creepy Crawly Things

Even as I pick through and choose which leaves I’m going to take inside and paint on-it reminds me of how we minister to the lost. We see people through the lens of redemption, and we reach for them. But, even as I reach down into the ground, my hand often gets swarmed with bugs that were hidden on or under the leaves. Worms, beetles, and other creepy crawly things.  There were times in just loving people from hard places where I felt like I had to reach into dark areas of their life. Sometimes, I got bit, swarmed, and a little creeped out. But that’s part of living life for Jesus. He goes into those places and we follow. He loves them, and we love Him-so we go to where his lost lovers are.

All Dead things to Life

Every leaf I pick from the ground is dead. I paint on them, and re-arrange them to create a crown on the woman I paint and attach it to her. It becomes part of her. It reminds me of every dead aspect of my life being redeemed and re-arranged in the hands of Jesus. Every leaf represents one aspect of our lives that has once been dead and decomposing, but then given a new story & identity. 

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Covered and Unashamed

The “crowns” in all my pieces are a representation of honor. Even as I was arranging the leaves, painting on them, adorning them, I was thinking of my own journey through shame. God continues to remind me that those who trust in him will never be put to shame. And his garment of praise that he cloaks me in, covers my shame. 

Fragile Processes

I have broken or torn many of the leaves as I have tried to glue them together. The leaves that are most dried out are more susceptible to breaking-I must be extra careful with those. The leaves that have some life in them-or have a little bit of green left in them are easier to deal with and are more flexible. 

A long time ago, I watched a documentary on how an organization was rescuing girls from a Cambodian brothel. One thing they said was that they look for girls that still have “life” or “fight” left in them. Because, the others they have tried to rescue were so completely broken and numb, that any attempts to revive them were futile. They were so enslaved. 

This reminds me of the leaves I work with-the ones that have been dead on the ground longer are more vulnerable to being broken beyond repair. The ones that have a bit of life in them have more strength to endure the process of rearrangement. 

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So even as I work under my dim studio light, I can imagine God’s hands working in similar fashion in the hearts of the children and women enslaved all over the world. Me too.

All the dead things in our lives can be brought to life. Every fragile thing will be handled carefully-if we will hand it over.  

Do Not Despise the Lowly Worm by Joanna Mayes

A Note from Sereen: I recently had the honor of being commissioned to paint 4 prophetic paintings for a ministry in Foley, Alabama called “The Table”. Joanna Mayes, the founder of The Table, reached out to me to paint 4 prophetic dreams that she had for the Body of Christ. When she began to share about them, I was deeply ministered to and felt that these dreams needed to be shared as an important edification and encouragement to the Bride of Jesus. This art piece was based on a dream about Earthworms-a metaphor for intercessors. Please read what Joanna writes with an open heart and you will be lifted up in your place, position, and calling in the Kingdom! To read more of Joanna’s writing, please visit her blog and website: www.ChristianFreedom.Life. And look for The Table-Foley Alabama on Facebook!


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Do Not Despise the Lowly Worm

{A GUEST POST By Joanna Mayes from The Table Ministries in Foley, AL}

In a world where people are creating platforms all around us and everyone is crying out to be seen and heard, it can be very difficult to make ourselves pull away to the secret place with the Lord.  With so many things pulling us in so many different directions it can feel like a struggle to even find time to come into the prayer closet with the Lord. I exhort you to fight for those times in your life and I pray you will be motivated and inspired to do so after reading these words, because God is calling out to his intercessors to come into the inner chambers with Him.  God is raising up an army of intercessors in the hour we are living in. The Great Harvest hinges on the prayers of these intercessor warriors.


We are Worms But We Are God’s Worms!

Isaiah 41:8-20

“But you, Israel, my servant,
    Jacob, whom I have chosen,
    you descendants of Abraham my friend,
9 I took you from the ends of the earth,
    from its farthest corners I called you.
I said, ‘You are my servant’;
    I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

11 “All who rage against you
    will surely be ashamed and disgraced;
those who oppose you
    will be as nothing and perish.
12 Though you search for your enemies,
    you will not find them.
Those who wage war against you
    will be as nothing at all.
13 For I am the Lord your God
    who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
    I will help you.
14 Do not be afraid, you worm Jacob,
    little Israel, do not fear,
for I myself will help you,” declares the Lord,
    your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
15 “See, I will make you into a threshing sledge,
    new and sharp, with many teeth.
You will thresh the mountains and crush them,
    and reduce the hills to chaff.
16 You will winnow them, the wind will pick them up,
    and a gale will blow them away.
But you will rejoice in the Lord
    and glory in the Holy One of Israel.

17 “The poor and needy search for water,
    but there is none;
    their tongues are parched with thirst.
But I the Lord will answer them;
    I, the God of Israel, will not forsake them.
18 I will make rivers flow on barren heights,
    and springs within the valleys.
I will turn the desert into pools of water,
    and the parched ground into springs.
19 I will put in the desert
    the cedar and the acacia, the myrtle and the olive.
I will set junipers in the wasteland,
    the fir and the cypress together,
20 so that people may see and know,
    may consider and understand,
that the hand of the Lord has done this,
    that the Holy One of Israel has created it.

The Dream

A few years back the Lord gave me a dream that profoundly affected me.  There were many facets of the dream, but for the sake of time I want to focus on one part of the dream.  In my dream, I was in a school, and in the janitor’s closet of the school a container with worms that had been developing, tucked away hidden in darkness were pulled out.  I was concerned about the safety of the development of these worms, not wanting them to be disturbed.

I would not have focused on the worms at all after the dream except that a few days later I awoke with the words, “do not despise the lowly worm” as my first loud waking thought.  The thought kept coming to me throughout the day, and so I began to research earthworms and seek the Lord as to what he was trying to teach me through the dream.  

What I discovered took my breath away.  The worm is a humble creature. It is lowly, but it is far from worthless.   As I studied earthworms I realized that though they are lowly and often invisible, in simply doing what God created them to do they make the world around us beautiful.  


Dream Interpretation

The janitor’s closet represents the secret place with God.  It is the place where it is just Him and us in prayer and worship together.  Jesus is the janitor. He laid aside all of his majesty and splendor and came to earth taking the form of a lowly servant to make man clean and purify the land.  His tools are water (love) and soap (correction unto repentance). He alone knows the proper ratio each of us needs.

The worm represents the us as men and women who take on the servant position of intercessor, developing in the secret place with Jesus.  It can feel lonely in this place and the intercessor can feel like they aren’t making much of a difference in the world around them. While others are out getting much done that can be seen outwardly and receiving praise and recognition, the intercessor can feel discouraged and forgotten and boxed in.  However, the intercessor is moving heaven and earth in ways he or she often cannot see.

Earthworms are amazing little creatures.  They don’t get a lot of glory or recognition for what they do but farmers know their value well.  They have a huge impact on the soil and fertile soil produces an increased harvest. Earthworms literally transform the soil, breaking down organic material, taking organic material from the surface of the soil down deep into the soil.  They act to filter out bad substances from the soil by breaking them down as well as distributing incredibly fertile castings in their wake. The worm acts as a little plow breaking up the soil and loosening it so oxygen and water can permeate the soil properly.  They help produce the perfect conditions around the roots of plants. Good roots produce good fruit.

As intercessors, it is important for us to consume the Word of God daily.  As we digest His Word and spend time in the secret place with Him, we begin to fertilize the world around us.  Below the surface our prayers are helping make fertile soil as well as breaking through hard impacted ground around the hearts of the lost. 

Ezekiel 36:26 (NIV)

26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. 

As God sends the rain of his love onto the soil, it’s able to actually be absorbed instead of just running off without hydrating the roots.  A person with a hardened heart is resistant to letting love in, but prayer helps break up that fallow ground. It also keeps the heart of the intercessor in a permeable place as well.  It’s hard to remain hard toward people we are truly praying God’s best for.

Earthworms also act to filter out toxins from the soil.  God uses prayer in much the same way. Demonic activity is shut down through the power of prayer.  People are healed and delivered through prayer. Heaven moves in response to prayer!  


The Living Waters

John 7:37-39 English Standard Version (ESV)

Rivers of Living Water

37 On the last day of the feast, the great day, Jesus stood up and cried out, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. 38 Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’” 39 Now this he said about the Spirit, whom those who believed in him were to receive, for as yet the Spirit had not been given, because Jesus was not yet glorified.

Earthworms need water to live and so does the intercessor. Without it the worm will dry out and shrivel up and die.  How sad. Without rivers of living water, none of us can live. Because of this, the earthworm thrives best below ground, out of the spotlight.  However, there are times that the earthworm does come to the surface. When the showers of rain fall on the earth, the earthworm feels the vibrations of the soil and comes up to the surface.  In this situation, I cannot help but think of Jesus who remained hidden for his first 30 years but surfaced and produced much fertile soil. Ultimately, Jesus gave his life for mankind in much the same way the worm ends up dying.  Jesus was pierced and lifted up on the cross to die. The worm helplessly gives its life up as the birds come and swoop it up, becoming food for the bird and its young.

Broken as Bait

When Jesus called some of his first disciples, he told them he would make them fishers of men.  When I think of that I have images of nets being cast out for large groups of fish at a time. Certainly, that is a big picture view of what happens, but just as fruits and vegetables are harvested one piece at a time, a fisherman often casts out his pole with the worm hanging from the hook as an appetizing meal for the fish.  As we spend time in the secret place with God, we become irresistibly transformed and flavorful to draw in the catch of souls of men and women around us. We give off a wonderful flavor and aroma of Jesus and people are hooked on the love of Jesus which salts our words and deeds. In this instance, the intercessor’s interactions with those he or she encounters can produce much food for those around them.

Power in Humility

The earthworm understands its position.  It knows there is safety and effectiveness in hiddenness.  The things that the average person relies upon for success are irrelevant to the earthworm.  The earthworm’s appearance is not beautiful by man’s standards. It’s often hidden and underground.  When it comes to the surface it’s in its most vulnerable state, susceptible to being stepped on and crushed.  

The earthworm is strongest when doing what it was created to do.  Below ground, it plows and slowly but surely moves the earth before it, consuming with its most powerful weapon, it’s mouth.

As intercessors, it can be hard to be hidden.  We may feel lonely and forgotten in our times of prayer.  We may feel unseen. But God sees and He moves heaven on our behalf.  He acts in response to prayers that align with His will. Our strength lies not in our power, beauty or abilities but rather lies in the power of our King.  As we come in low like the earthworm, God’s heart is moved on our behalf. A true prayer warrior knows that God loves a broken and contrite spirit.

Psalm 51:17

My sacrifice, O God, is[b] a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart
    you, God, will not despise.

The intercessor understands that he or she is praying in line with God’s will.  While we can be tempted to pray for what we want and view God as working for us to accomplish our plans, it is important that we align ourselves in the proper position.  We are instead to come in low and humble and take a listening posture to hear the Father’s heart. We are invited into His plans.  Understanding that God does fight, but He goes before us in battle.  God is not interested in choosing sides. He is for His plans and purposes and therefore it is important that we take the time to seek His will and follow Him into battle.

Joshua 5:13-15

The Commander of the LORD’s Army

13Now when Joshua was near Jericho, he looked up and saw a man standing in front of him with a drawn sword in His hand. Joshua approached Him and asked, “Are You for us or for our enemies?”

14“Neither,” He replied. “I have now come as commander of the LORD’s army.” 

Then Joshua fell facedown in reverenced and asked Him, “What does my Lord have to say to His servant?”

15The commander of the LORD’s army replied, “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy.” 

And Joshua did so.

We live in a world that teaches us that success comes in what we can accomplish and achieve by the works of our hands and through power and position.  God’s ways are different however. Our greatest victories can be achieved as we can find rest in positioning ourselves in the humble posture of the earthworm.  Our hiddenness protects us from the pride that so many with high profiles battle and often succumb to. Many have fallen through premature power and position that they were unprepared to handle.

As intercessors, we can achieve more than we may ever even realize until we meet God face to face in heaven one day.  While there is much we see around us that changes in response to our prayer, I also know that our prayers are also effecting change that will continue on long after we are gone as well as reaching far beyond what we are positioned to see.

 Did you know that a field of wheat with numerous earthworms moving below the surface, breaking up the ground and releasing its fertile castings can yield up to a 400 percent increase in harvest?  I believe that God’s creation reveals how His Kingdom operates.  

Be strong and take courage earthworm intercessors!  You may not realize it but you are part of a powerful army literally moving Heaven and earth in response to your prayers!

-Joanna Mayes
ChristianFreedom.Life

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GOD DOESN'T JUST WANT TO USE YOU

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One of the greatest prayers of my life is that God would use me to encourage, uplift, and help others. So many powerful moments in my life were when people would tell me how they believe God would use me in ministry, to reach people, and win people for the kingdom. And to this day, it’s one of the greatest desires of my heart that God would redeem all my pain and use it to bring comfort to those in pain. That God would use my paintings to bring hope to dark situations. That God would use me to raise up my daughters in Him and to nurture their gifts so they can use them at full potential.

However, that desire for God to use me started to become the only way I could understand God’s value for me and my life. If I didn’t do ministry, what was my value. Who was I then? If I couldn’t see immediate fruit from my labor, was God still using me? If I needed a sabbatical, and rested, did that mean God was far away from me? Displeased with me?

See, in weak and weary seasons, that mindset that God only saved you to use you starts to become a stumbling block to true intimacy with him. And it’s been in the desert moments, in the wilderness moments, in the weary moments that God’s true value of us gets revealed.

The constant questions of “what is God’s will for my life,” and the anxious toil in hopes that you are not “missing your call,” or not “wasting your life”? I use to be so focused on these questions, that my purpose was somewhere far away and I had to somehow figure out how to get there on my own. But, I finally realized those are the wrong questions. And my perspective on God was off.

GOD IS NOT A SLAVE-DRIVER

“I love each of you with the same love that the Father loves me. You must continually let my love nourish your hearts. If you keep my commands, you will live in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands, for I continually live nourished and empowered by his love. My purpose for telling you these things is so that the joy that I experience will fill your hearts with overflowing gladness!”-John 15:9-11 TPT

God’s priority is to SAVE you, HEAL you, and DELIVER you. That is why he died. That was the reward for his suffering on the cross. God wants to use you but not at the expense of intimacy with him or even at the expense of those first priorities.

Have you ever said or has someone ever said to you that after you overcome a hard or difficult trial that God was going to use it to minister to others? To be honest in those hard moments, I didn’t want to be used, I wanted to be delivered, healed, or comforted. I believe the heart of God the Father is the same. I DO want God to use me, but I also understand:

God as more than an employer.

God is not a slave-driver who is looking to get the most out of us for his own profit.

He is a Father who has adopted us as sons and daughters, and our well-being is priority to him over our efficiency.

Our character is more important than our performance.

Our productivity takes a back seat to our intimacy with Him. That’s God’s heart for us.

He is proud of your accomplishments, but he is more interested in HOW you go there. Was it with integrity? Was your heart far from him or close to him? Were your actions rooted in love?

The mature children of God are those who are moved by the impulses of the Holy Spirit. And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!” For the Holy Spirit makes God’s fatherhood real to us as he whispers into our innermost being, “You are God’s beloved child!”-Romans 8:14-16TPT

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“Afloat”, 2014, Acrylic on reclaimed wood.

GUILT-BASED MOTIVATION WILL HINDER YOU

Those who are motivated by the flesh only pursue what benefits themselves. But those who live by the impulses of the Holy Spirit are motivated to pursue spiritual realities. For the mind-set of the flesh is death, but the mind-set controlled by the Spirit finds life and peace.-Romans 8:5-6 TPT

Did you know that guilt is actually FLESH driven? But like the verse above says, we are not motivated by the flesh, but the impulses of the Holy Spirit. Love for God and a deep understanding of our Identity will take us much farther in Kingdom advancement than guilt and obligation. Do you think Christ died for us to follow him out of obligation, fear, and guilt? What a terrible reward! No, Jesus wants us to passionately pursue him, want to be where he is. In our intimacy with Him, we will want to be wherever he is. In our intimacy with him, we want to do whatever he is doing. In our identity as sons and daughters, we WANT to do whatever the Father says because we love him.

Obeying God is not natural though. Like sheep we have all gone astray and left God’s paths to follow our own. We are bent towards independence (Isaiah 53:6). But that is why God gave us the Holy Spirit. So we can be EMPOWERED to not just DO, but BE exactly who we were made to be.

The truth is, if we use GUILT to fuel us, we will burn out every single-time. But if we allow the HOLY SPIRIT to empower us, we have an everlasting source of power that enables us to go much further.

OBEDIENCE IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE

“You show that you are my intimate friends when you obey all that I command you. I have never called you ‘servants,’ because a master doesn’t confide in his servants, and servants don’t always understand what the master is doing. But I call you my most intimate friends, for I reveal to you everything that I’ve heard from my Father.”-John 15:14-15 TPT

I truly believe that the reason God leaves our future a mystery, is because if he revealed it all at once, we would automatically go into autopilot mode and aim to achieve those things in our way, through our own man-made paths. But, the fact that our futures are a mystery is PROOF that God isn’t just interested in us accomplishing goals. That the journey to that end is actually more vital.

Your calling and purpose are not far away and unattainable. Your daily walk IS your purpose. What you choose today determines your future. Every little thing adds up.

Proverbs 17:24 says, “A discerning person keeps wisdom in view, but a fool’s eyes wander to the ends of the earth.” And this verse convicts me because I AM a visionary, and it’s hard for me to focus in the present. But, like I said before. It’s not as much about reaching the end goal as it is about how you get there. Process is important. Process IS the purpose.

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“Silence & A Whisper”, 2013, Acrylic on Reclaimed Wood

If you are going to work hard, aim for chasing hard after wisdom and understanding. Go after the authentic heart of God, not just man-made ideas that have been passed down to you. Seek & search his heart and he will reveal it to you.

Peace,

Sereen

BETRAYAL, LONELINESS, AND FRIENDSHIP

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The poem here on this post is one that I wrote in 1999, when I was 13 years old. As you can see, loneliness is something I have battled from early on. Many times, I enjoy the solitude and welcome my alone time as it’s a very comfortable place for me. But, there are also many times in my life where hard things have happened, and I wasn’t sure who to call. If you are struggling with loneliness, connection, or betrayal, this post might be for you.

Here are the questions I’m wrestling with: How important is friendship in the context of our lives? In the context of ministry? Do we really only need God? Why am I so lonely? Why is it so hard to connect with people on a deep level? What can I do to change this?

I am talking mostly about human friendships and relationships here. This blog post will most likely turn into a series because of the depth of wisdom that can be found on this topic. Friendship with God is another blog post that will come later. But, until then, here is what I found in my digging:

1) Jesus Was Lonely

  • Jesus was betrayed by someone he called an “intimate friend”. Judas. Betrayal is the ultimate loneliness because it comes from those closest to you. Someone you trusted/loved.

    • The disciples did as Jesus had instructed them, and they prepared the Passover meal. When evening came he took his place at the table and dined with the Twelve. While they were eating, Jesus spoke up and said, “One of you is about to betray me.” Feeling deeply hurt by these words, one after another asked him, “You don’t mean me, do you?” He answered, “It is one who has shared meals with me as an intimate friend. All that was prophesied of me will take place, but how miserable it will be for the one who betrays the Son of Man. It would be far better for him if he had never been born!”-Matthew 26:19-24 TPT

    • At that moment Judas, his once-trusted disciple, appeared, along with a large crowd of men armed with swords and clubs. They had been sent to arrest Jesus by order of the ruling priests and Jewish religious leaders. Now, Judas, the traitor, had arranged to give them a signal that would identify Jesus, for he had told them, “Jesus is the one whom I will kiss. So grab him!”Judas quickly stepped up to Jesus and said, “Shalom, Rabbi,” and he kissed him on both cheeks. “My beloved friend,” Jesus said, “is this why you’ve come?”

      Then the armed men seized Jesus to arrest him.-Matthew 26:47-50 TPT

  • Literally, every single one of Jesus’s disciples betrayed him when it came time for his arrest and crucifixion. Every. Single. One. The ones that he ate with, slept next to, the ones he ministered alongside, the ones he discipled, the ones he prayed for, the ones he spent the most time with and called “friends'“. Not ONE of them stuck by him when it mattered most.

    • Along the way Jesus said to them, “Before the night is over, you will all desert me. This will fulfill the prophecy of the Scripture that says: I will strike down the shepherd and all the sheep will scatter far and wide! - Matthew 26:31 TPT

    • Then he walked a short distance away, and overcome with grief, he threw himself facedown on the ground and prayed, “My Father, if there is any way you can deliver me from this suffering, please take it from me. Yet what I want is not important, for I only desire to fulfill your plan for me.” Then an angel from heaven appeared to strengthen him.

      Later, he came back to his three disciples and found them all sound asleep. He awakened Peter and said to him, “Do you lack the strength to stay awake with me for even just an hour? Keep alert and pray that you’ll be spared from this time of testing. You should have learned by now that your spirit is eager enough, but your humanity is weak.”-Matthew 26:39-41 TPT

  • Right before Jesus died on the cross he was crucified on, the ultimate loneliness: separation from God:

    • For three hours, beginning at noon, darkness came over the earth. And at three o’clock Jesus shouted with a mighty voice in Aramaic, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?”—that is, “My God, My God, why have you deserted me?” -Matthew 27: 45-46 TPT


I honestly could go on and on about the loneliness that King David felt as a runaway, leader, murderer, worshipper, and King. I could go on and on about the loneliness of the prophets, particularly Jeremiah who was known as the “weeping prophet”. I could write about the loneliness Job felt when he was languishing in sickness and grief and his friends blamed him for it. I could go on about the betrayals that happened to our greatest leaders, but there will be another time and place for that. Better yet, dig into it yourself!

2) Battling Loneliness Will Take Leadership

Unfortunately, we are in an age where most of our communication is non-verbal AND non-physical. With texting and social media, we don’t often hear the tones of those we are talking to-eliminating a lot of the intimacy of voice-to-voice contact. On top of that, we don’t get to experience the body language of someone we are talking to when we communicate in those ways. Because of this, I do feel that our social awareness as a culture has digressed. We leave A LOT of room for assumption and dead spaces in communication often lead to disconnect. Disconnect leads to a dwindling in relationship. I can’t tell you the last time someone called me just to say “hi”. Can you? I can’t tell you the last time someone actually took time to visit me…just to be with me-with no agenda or meeting planned. Can you? Don’t ever underestimate the power of quality time.

What I’m getting at here is that battling loneliness is literally you versus our current culture. And just like any counter-culture, world-changing endeavor, it will take leadership. It will take stepping out, reaching out, and not just waiting for invitations to come. It will take a lot of grace on your part. A lot of forgiveness and patience for the lack of reciprocation you WILL feel in the beginning. Press through. Love anyway. Give your love and time anyway. Be a good friend anyway. The world needs leaders who will open up their lives, their homes, their arms, their smiles to their neighbors, colleagues, and peers. The world needs friends.

Action Step: Invite someone to do something with you without an agenda! Just be a good friend.

Love overlooks the mistakes of others, but dwelling on the failures of others devastates friendships.-Proverbs 17:9 TPT

Do your best to live as everybody’s friend. -Romans 12:18 TPT

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3) People Are Not Disposable

People will hurt us. That is a simple fact of life. I haven’t met a single person in my life who hasn’t been hurt by another person. Unintentionally or intentionally, it happens. The problem is that oftentimes we adopt the idea that people are '“disposable”. We become self-focused on OUR needs and if someone else isn’t meeting our every expectation, we cut them off. Un-friend them. Then we become bitter, resentful, with unresolved conflict on one end of the friendship and confusion on the other. We don’t fight for our friendships. Now, this does not apply to anyone who is in an abusive or toxic relationship. This is about us throwing away relationships because of minor offenses or even misunderstandings. THIS is why we can’t find lasting friendships. We don’t fight anymore. In fact, I argue fighting is better. I wish we DID say what hurt us, I wish we DID confess that we may have been wrong. I wish we would STOP being passive aggressive on social media and more aggressive in our fight to get true understanding of one another. True, life-long friendships have their ups and downs. But, the commitment to the relationship will determine whether or not it will last.

Action step: Pray through which friendships you should fight for, and which friendships need to be released. If you feel the need to fight for a friendship that is hurting right now-take the time to be honest about what is hurting you, or confess the ways you may have been wrong. Argue if you have to.

A dear friend will love you no matter what, and a family sticks together through all kinds of trouble.-Proverbs 17:17 TPT

You can trust a friend who wounds you with his honesty, but your enemy’s pretended flattery comes from insincerity.-Proverbs 27:6 TPT

So never give up on a friend or abandon a friend of your father— for in the day of your brokenness you won’t have to run to a relative for help. A friend nearby is better than a relative far away.-Proverbs 27:10 TPT

4) Friendship is Pure Ministry

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A lie we can be tempted to believe is that friendship is superfluous in ministry. Ministry is all about healing people, casting out demons, rescuing out of darkness, preaching, praying, prophesying-yes, but I will tell you something. Genuine friendship is one of the purest forms of ministry. Friendship is the way that Jesus ministers to us. It was the way he raised up his disciples as leaders:

  • It was the desire of Jesus to be intimate friends with us: For the greatest love of all is a love that sacrifices all. And this great love is demonstrated when a person sacrifices his life for his friends.-John 15:13 TPT

  • Wisdom says that friendship is good for the soul and brings in God’s presence: Sweet friendships refresh the soul and awaken our hearts with joy, for good friends are like the anointing oil that yields the fragrant incense of God’s presence.-Proverbs 27:9 TPT

  • Jesus reveals everything to his friends: “I have never called you ‘servants,’ because a master doesn’t confide in his servants, and servants don’t always understand what the master is doing. But I call you my most intimate friends, for I reveal to you everything that I’ve heard from my Father.”-John 15:15 TPT

  • Friendship offerred the intimacy Jesus needed to raise up his leaders: He appointed the Twelve, whom he named apostles. He wanted them to be continually at his side as his friends, and so that he could send them out to preach-Mark 3:14

This is not the last that I will be writing about friendship. The Bible offers so many jewels in the revelation of friendship. As I dig more into this, I will write more, but for now, leave your thoughts and comments below! I’d love to hear your thoughts on the subject!

THE SMALL BEGINNINGS

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This painting is called “Where Love & Justice Meet” and I painted it around 2010. I would consider this painting one of my signature pieces even though my style and life have changed substantially since I painted this piece. It reminds me of small beginnings. How small I felt in the world, how small I felt in light of the circumstances facing me, and how I was just beginning an important journey of inner healing.

When I first began to paint, I painted small girls alone in a spacious and colorful place. The paintings are spacious height wise but if you notice, there are lots of trees in my paintings. They surround the girl-she has space to breathe but is also shielded and protected. To me, that seems to be the perfect illustration of a good childhood. Freedom to roam but not without protective guardrails.

The women in my recent pieces are large and overtake the canvas. Unintentionally done, I have watched the little girl in my painting grow up over the past 9 years. She is no longer small, she is larger. She isn’t clothed in a simple dress, now she is more adorned and equipped. I went into painting to see the healing and rescue of sex-trafficking victims (more about that here), but I didn’t realize until recently that God used painting to do some rescuing in me as well.

The problem with growing up experiencing trauma continuously (despite the obvious) is that we don’t really realize how much of how we were made to operate gives way to survival. When you are forced to choose fight or flight, parts of our soul that were meant to express and create start to shut down. I often wonder if it’s because we don’t see art or expression as a necessary part of life. However, in researching the effects of art therapy, I have found that it can sometimes be the only answer to healing hurting hearts. To calming fears. And to bringing hope. I have found that to be true for me.

When you look at these paintings, you will see a blend of two things: a loving Father healing his daughter and a passionate daughter wanting to delight her Father. The beauty of God is astounding to me. To behold the face of God, to see his beauty and poetry in the ways he has intervened in my life is nothing short of breath-taking. I want you to see it too. There is healing for you. There is breath for you. There are miracles simmering within the vastness of God’s heart-ready to pour out on you should you be willing to receive.

-SEREEN

HUMILITY

In my forever long personal fight against my own pride and self-righteousness, and through a delightful season of pruning and refining fire, God had been revealing to me some things about humility. I thought I would share: 

Humility is Not:
-self deprecation
-false modesty
-a constant balancing act between your flaws and your accomplishments
-a constant reminder of your flaws and failures
-self punishment 
-constant guilt 
-walking around ashamed and embarrassed of who you are

Humility IS: 

Humility is actually a completely surrendered heart to Jesus. 

Humility is laying down your will for his will. 

Humility is not always needing to be right. It seeks to preserve relationships over facts and evidence.

Humility is being willing to do anything and everything God calls you to-without questioning his character or his goodness. 

Humility is giving yourself grace because you accepted the free grace of God that you know you desperately needed. 

Humility is thinking of others more than you think of yourself. 

Humility is actually being ok with your weaknesses because God’s power and glory is displayed through them. 

Humility has no desire to compete with others, and is well rested in your identity.

Humility is showing dignity, respect, and understanding of others. 

Humility is being able to accept correction and having the courage to walk out your convictions. 

Humility is always looking to the future and having faith in the promises of God without over analyzing your current situation. 

Humility is being childlike and in wonder, when the world tells you to be hard and cynical. 

Humility is being willing to wait. Wait on God. Wait on the right circumstances. 

Humility is choosing integrity even when no one is watching. 

Humility is acknowledging your need for forgiveness and saying “I’m sorry” when making mistakes. 

Humility is acknowledging the gifts God has given you, using them, and stewarding them according to the Word of God and for the purposes of God. 

Humility tends to say “despite my insecurities, I will do what is being asked of me”. 

Humility is always looking to meet the needs of others instead of always looking for how others can meet yours. 

Humility is being honest and open and vulnerable. 

“The source of revelation-knowledge is found as you fall down in surrender before the Lord. Don’t expect to see Shekinah glory until the Lord sees your sincere humility.”
‭Proverbs‬ ‭15:33‬ ‭TPT‬‬

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POWER

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The power of Redemption through Jesus is that the lies, traumas, pain, and brokenness can no longer keep you bound, but it is now in subjection to you.

What will you choose to do with it?

There is time for healing and grieving and God is too merciful to let you go unheard and too kind to brush your emotions away. Take your time with that. God is patient with your pain.

But, he also believes in you too much to let you remain a victim forever. Take your stand. Press forward. Speak truth to the lies. God is your help. Don’t let your past rob you of the glorious future he has for you.

“You empower me for victory with your wrap-around presence. Your power within makes me strong to subdue, and by stooping down in gentleness you strengthened me and made me great!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭18:35‬ ‭TPT‬‬

HOW You Speak Matters

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How we speak truth is just as important as the truth itself. One of my spiritual mentors use to say “Speaking truth without love is like trying to give a kiss with bad breath. Nobody wants it.” It’s important that we love the people we speak to more than hearing ourselves speak. We have to love the people we minister to more than the ministry itself!

I gathered these thoughts in a cloud of righteous indignation. Someone on my Facebook feed had released a prophetic word that actually made me angry:

  • If your public revelation or word or exhortation excludes the ability for the poor, single moms, or people of other nations and cultures to actually participate-then it is probably more a religious man-made standard than an edifying or lifting up of the entire Body. Don’t make personal convictions or callings a Law of the Lord. 

  • If your word brings guilt and shame for those who can not live up to what you are “challenging”, then it’s probably a man-made standard that eliminates the dependency on God’s mercy and puts heavy weight on human ambition. 

  • If your word comes from a place of judgement, bitterness, fear, or resentment-then it will tear down rather than build up. Prophecy is for building up-that doesn’t always mean what you say is flattering all the time, but it does mean to be careful of who this word is landing on. Sometimes we are so eager to give a word that we forget who is listening-and forget to ask God who our audience is. 

  • If your word doesn’t speak like a Father who gave up his Son for sinful people, then re-evaluate the delivery. 

  • If your word doesn’t speak like the Holy Spirit who is eager to guide and counsel with love, patience, and kindness, then re-evaluate your tone. 

  • If your word doesn’t speak like a Savior who is sacrificial for those he loves, then re-evaluate whether you are washing the feet of your disciples or judging them like a Pharisee. 

Don’t underestimate the power of your voice, and carry the gifts God gave you with a holistic view of His character and the Word. Tunnel vision always hurts people.

We appeal to you, dear brothers and sisters, to instruct those who are not in their place of battle. Be skilled at gently encouraging those who feel themselves inadequate. Be faithful to stand your ground. Help the weak to stand again. Be quick to demonstrate patience with everyone. -1Thesselonians 5:14 TPT

DIVISION

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There will always be division on Earth-always. Good vs. evil, spirit vs. flesh, truth vs. lie. Christ called it: "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword."- Matthew 10:34. 

Although Christ is our Prince of Peace-he did NOT come to make peace with evil, but to abolish it. 

He didn’t come to tolerate injustice for the sake of “peace”, but to declare bold truths loudly to Pharisees & sinners-making them squirm and ultimately crucify him. 

He didn’t come to be quiet & comfortable about the world and all of its problems-but bled out and cried out “Oh Lord, why have you forsaken me?” for the sake of love, redemption & true justice. To be the solution to all the world’s problems. By death. Not by silence. 

So how do we identify the truth in chaotic times such as these? I am being challenged and continue to challenge my brothers & sisters in Christ to not let media shape your voice. Let TRUTH ring out. The world needs us to respond as salt & light, with Spirit-guided answers, and supernatural wisdom. How desperately we need to seek God. There is no other way that will be more fruitful or beneficial or impactful. 

"Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves."- Matthew 10:16

I did not speak in secret, in a land of darkness; I did not say to the offspring of Jacob, 'Seek me in vain.' I the Lord speak the truth; I declare what is right. -Isaiah 45:19

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. -James 1:5